Saturday, February 18, 2012
I have a lot of fears still. I love and trust my doctors. I feel like I have made the best choices available to me right now. I am afraid though of the unknown. What if they find something in there? What if things don't go as planned? What will not having feeling for the rest of my life be like? Will the reconstruction feel natural like a part of my body or will it feel like a foreign object I want out of me? Will it feel like a heavy bra that just want to take off but it's stuck in me? What will recovery really be like? Will the girls be alright without me? Is all of my prep going to be worth it? Is there something I'm forgetting?